When I think back to the days when all that mattered to me was becoming a partner in a corporate law firm, I laugh at my naivete. Without knowing what something is truly like, how can you truly want it?
Since then, I've reformed my dreams and aspirations. I still want to be a lawyer but I'm pretty positive that the corporate law lifestyle is not compatible with who I am. I just want to practice law. But there's always the dilemma of how to pay off loans. Law school ain't cheap.
I don't even know if I can put my finger on what exactly it is that I hate about working in a big corporate law firm. I think it's the demanding people, the stress, the lack of consideration, the inability to determine if you like what you're doing because you're doing so much in so little time, the lack of respect, the boring shit they call "work," the incompentency of support staff, the relentless pace, the lack of time. Honestly, do you know what I want? I want time. I want time to enjoy the work I'm doing. I want time to understand and to prepare something I'm proud of submitting. I want time to work at something difficult and to figure it out. I want time to relish the mental journey I take in getting to a solution. There's no time. And I think that I'm too methodical and slow of a thinker to deal with lack of time.
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